Monday, May 14, 2012


I've found a recent fascination with nebula's. I'm not sure what it's about as space isn't particularly interesting to me, never really has been now that I think about it. I've been using them quite a bit in photoshop designs and I guess I've kind of found a new obsession with them.
Something about the randomness of them perhaps? Or how they twist into unfamiliar organic shapes that I find easy to trace in my head over and over again? Whatever the reason I can loose myself looking at one, and if anyone were ever to attempt to navigate the folders on my computer, they would find themselves hopelessly lost in nebula's as well.

I can't help but wonder what creates these beautiful spectacles. I don't want some big scientific answer, I'd rather have one of those century old stories from a little village in the mountains no one has ever heard of before, or some big philosophical reason from a little kid. Because the way I see it you can know every scientific thing there is to know and yet you know nothing of the world around you. Only when you stop asking why and starting asking how can you move forward.

Why is overrated, and frankly quite over used. Everyone always thinks they're asking a 'big' life question when they ask why. But they aren't they're doing the same as everyone else out there and trying to think 'outside of the box' when really that's what everyone else is doing, so technically you're as far inside the box as you can get. You have to ask the mostly unlikely question you can, how.

When won't tell you anything, neither will what, because if you don't know what then you can't begin to question in the first place. Who won't tell you anything either. For instance if you go around asking who created a nebula then you may as well be talking to a brick wall because that's how much information you're going to get.

To me life is about the how. How can I do the EXACT same thing as someone else and get such a different result? As similar as why and how are, it's all about how you use them. You can easily substitute why for how, or the other way around, but only when you start asking the unexpected can you really get the answers you're looking for. Call me crazy if you want but I believe that life is about finding the most unexpected thing to ask, and doing just that, for only then can you get an answer that makes perfect sense, while everyone else runs circles around pointless questions.

Questioning Chances

Friday, May 11, 2012


I made it! I'm going to Germany! Though this news is at least a week old, if not a few days more. Thought I'd update anyway. -- Panic mode

Tuesday, March 13, 2012

Sickness & Hair ideas

It happened I got sick and it was hell and now I'm almost better and I think I might have it again.

Here's the story of my last couple of weeks MIA (Missing In Action). I woke up two Fridays ago and had no voice whatsoever. That really sucked, but I dealt with it. By Monday I still had no voice. Tuesday I didn't have a voice for a majority of the day but around five at night it came back. Unfortunately once my voice returned my health took a spiral downward and lets just say it was a week and a half of pure torture. But now I'm better and back to the world for the time being.

On a different note April is fast approaching, the month when I will find out if I'm going to Germany next year.

Now to the second main point of this post. I'm having hair issues. Right now my hair reaches to just below my shoulders not a bad thing at all, except that it's at that perfect length where I have no idea what to do with it. I know that I'm going to cut it once more before I leave for Germany because I'd rather not have to get a haircut in a language I don't speak.

Any ideas?

Ball of Sunshine.

Saturday, March 3, 2012

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